You’ve been putting this off writing this letter for far too long. Partly because of how busy you are with work, partly because you’ve been arranging your dad's funeral, and partly because holding a mirror up to yourself and embracing a little self-awareness when you’re at a very low point in your life means acknowledging and facing the fact that you are, indeed, feeling like utter shit.
It’s not the first time you’ve felt the pits, and, I'll be honest with you, it won’t be the last. Losing a parent isn’t something you’ll have to go through often, but it is the worst you’ve ever felt in your life. I know this. I was there. It’s a truly awful part of what life is - and at least when the inevitable happens again, you’ll know what’s coming and therefore be better equipped for it. You’ll be older and wiser yourself. You’ll be stronger in every way possible. Those tidal waves of random emotion won’t hit you like a lorry appearing from nowhere; you’ve experienced them before and are now more aware.
Last time you lost someone close to you may have been 6 years ago, but look at all the good that’s come since. Particularly in your career…in that, now, you actually have one!
Each time you’ve faced some bullshit, you’ve been able to take it and convert it into fuel to push you onto bigger and better things. From your upbringing to losing grandad and now losing dad. Let’s go again and use these few thousand gallons to propel us forward, onward and upwards.